pawelwel < wiadomo co > @o2.pl
Added: Sep 23, 2008
From: AlanJones78
Duration: 9:51
I am nothing. My life serves no purpose with no ambitions, no control, no connections, relationships, or any sense of strength. I am slowly becoming my addiction. And soon I will be my addiction. Little by little I am deteriorating as my sense of self is quickly dissipating. I am becoming this thing that exists for no reason. The world has told me that if I do not have any strength to protect myself or if I do not not have anyone to protect me, it will punish me severely and kill me in the most cruel way possible. That is why I am scared of the world because without strength and protection I am a target waiting to get punished for someone's enjoyment. When I look into my future I do not see anything. The only thing I see for myself is being homeless and living on the street because I can't even take care of myself. Deep down inside ive always felt that would be my reality so why did I continue to live all these years when its been apparent that I am nothing at all. I know I am destined to become nothing at all. I am the epitome of ugliness and unattractiveness. No one wants to be connected to me because I excrete negative energy. Maybe this is the reason I can't form relationships with anyone. All I know is that right now I am meaningless. My life does not matter to me right now. I am void. So what can I do because right now I know the only outcome for me is to get worse.
Channel: People
Tags: anxiety death depression illness life meaningless mental social suicide
Rating: ( ratings) Views: 195' favoriteCount='2 Comments: 0
pawelwel < wiadomo co > @o2.pl
